Downer of a Day

I know they call it the Mondays, but I really felt it today. I was okay when I got to work, but then it just hit me. I didn't want to be there. I have no idea what it was. Was it just doing the same thing day in and day out? Am I really that sick of my job? I'm only 27. How do people do this until they are 65?!?! Maybe it is the fact that I feel like some of the people I work with are just absolute idiots. Now it's not my direct co-workers, it's more like people in higher places. See the morale where I work has hit an all-time low and I don't know how this doesn't go unnoticed by those that we have to answer to. I have never had so many "bitch" sessions at work for they entire time I've been there (which exceeds 6 years) than I have had in the past few weeks.

Yesterday, I was talking to my roommate and she told me that she asked her boyfriend if he had any single friends to hook me up with. He replied with "she is pretty enough that she doesn't need our help...she'll find someone." Now I hope he actually meant this and just wasn't covering up the fact that if he had any single guy friends, they would not want to go out with me. See, this is my problem! I believe they call it self-confidence and I think I have lacked this my entire life. For some reason, I have a really hard time taking someone's compliment seriously. And I have to say that my confidence has been a little low in the past few months. I found myself responding to my roommate's comment with "I'm not sure I want to meet someone." That is the truth. I do believe I'm very independent. Maybe it's b/c I'm not one of those girls who has always had a boyfriend, in fact, I have never really had one...at least not for long. Like the title, I have always been one of the guys. Maybe I am just that independent b/c I'm actually not used to having someone of the opposite sex around me all of the time. I like doing my "single stuff." Now, I'm not saying that those who do have boyfriends are not independent. I'm just used to doing a lot of things all by myself.

All I know is I definitely need a boost in the confidence department.